Christina Rose
True Colors of your Rainbow
Like the awakening dawn of a new day...
My eyes have finally opened to see the true colors of your rainbow...
It is not of bright colors of wonderful things to come...
Instead it is dark and shadowed by hidden secrets...
My heart is only filled with love and sunshine...
I tried so hard to share this with you but could not because your heart is like the moon during a full eclipse...
The beams of light from my sunshine could not penetrate your shadows of darkness...
It is now that I realize what it is that you fear the most...
It is called Loneliness...
This fear is what pushes you forward to seek being wanted and needed in many secret lives that you hold...
It is never your intentions to hurt anyone that comes across your path...
It is I that shall tell you that I have felt the wrath of total foolishness...
I blame myself for allowing you into my safe world with the hopes that you could heal all my wounds...
I cannot allow myself to hate you, for this word is not a part of my vocabulary or world...
I can only feel sorrow, sympathy and pain for you...
This journey that you have found yourself on is not much different from what mine use to be...
It derives from the lack of being loved as a child and now, as an adult, you seek it anywhere that it is permitted...
Like a stray animal that wanders aimlessly about, you enter any safe door that is opened...
You do not fear the repercussion's at first; you push them aside to be handled at a later time...
When all comes to an end like a crash of lightning, you find yourself blind and oblivious to reality...
Time comes to a thundering halt; shaking and trembling like an earthquake...
Now you find yourself in total despair, wounded, lost...
Since you travel in a kaleidoscope of dark colors, you find it hard to settle down or call any place home...
You tell yourself and others that you love them, only to find out that you do not know the true meaning of love...
There is an end to your long, endless journey...
A solution...
A light at the end of the tunnel...
Simply crawl within yourself...
Seek out who you are and what is it that will make you shine...
When this is accomplished, you shall have a rainbow of bright colors and know the true meaning of love for yourself and for others...
As a True Friend, I am here to help you, lend you an ear to listen, give you a shoulder to cry on, help guide you in the right direction and, most of all, never judge you...
For you, this I shall do unselfishly...
**Darling Bob, do not despair. All will be well soon and your heart shall mend and be full of sunshine. You are a wonderful person and now is the time for YOU to see it.