Susan K. Rowse
Viet Nam Loss ... Twofold
Tis' a shame life has dealt me a blow such as this.
To close my eyes nightly and blow you this kiss,
For the hurt that I caused you and your memory fraught...
With the anguish of sorrow and love that was lost.
From the years of the 60's and 70's, complete,
And the war that was fought, for us a defeat.
In two-fold for me ...and for you... who did wait,
And the toll of our love and the war that brought hate.
To a world that stood watching, as the whole scene be damned,
For the two souls left searching and for Viet Nam.
For us...oh so young...with innocent eyes,
The last view I had was of you in the skies.
Soaring away... on a jet, with my prayers...
And a vow... of forever, that didn't prove there.
Our love ever vanished on the wings of this war.
I was left here with fears as you traversed afar.
Away with my hopes and again at all cost,
To a war that was destined and a love that was lost.
My heart has a place for the years that will heal,
And a mind ever needy of a love that can seal...
The despair of the years with forgiving remiss,
For the Love that I loss... I blow you this kiss.
And pray that somehow, with God's smile you'll share,
The thoughts and the memories of a love that was there.
For the letters I wrote and the years of our youth,
For the children we were... but mostly the truth.
That gnaws at me daily, your forgiveness I miss...
My first Love, my soldier...forever this kiss.
10/86 SKR
Addition, Forgiveness 1/14/99
Today was a wonder for eyes that shine bright.
Forgiveness, you gave me, you set my world right.
My heart is all warm, your hands clutching there,
You squeezed it so gently, and showed that you care.
My hopes were then granted, forgiveness, your kiss,
The years are now folded but still something's amiss..
The thoughts and the wonder of life unforeseen,
What would have happened if the chances had been...
In favor of us... with our innocent smiles,
Would we be here, together, to walk this last mile?
Holding hands from the 60's and 70's complete...
To now and the future...not skipping a beat.
For this , we will wonder... it's good for the soul.
For you and me seeking an answer, untold.
It's this that I leave you... my kiss I will send,
My soldier, my first Love...and now a good friend.